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More than two decades ago, I was diagnosed of having a peculiar illness known as Bipolar Affective Disorder. My world as I knew it crumbled; I lost my business, then my job and later my sense of purpose. It was during this dark moments I rediscovered the joy of running and writing. Most of the articles here are about my rekindled pleasure of hitting the tarmac, my coming to terms with the illness and my discovery of the meaning of life.

I always on the lookout for inspirations to write in these three areas with the hope that they will shed new ray of hope to others who are in the same position as I am.

Do keep in touch if you feel connected through these essays.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Bipolar Art Circa 2007

Circa 2007, I had one of the worst episodes of mania attack.  At that time I was working as a consulting manager in MSC Technology Centre in Cyberjaya.  I owned a Palm TX then.  So when I was admitted to the hospital, I started drawing profusely.  Something I had not done since school days.  Shortly after the episode, I never take up drawing again.  It came like the Zephyr wind and never to return.  I, therefore share some of these images as a legacy of my illness.  Some make no sense.  So sit back and enjoy...

I also had a little project of constructing a board game I built using figurines and other objects.  The figurines are like a chess set with their own set of rules in moving them.  Here are the figurines being positioned at various stages of development.

It started with a question, "me and what kind of resources?"
 “Animis Opibusque Parati,” or “Prepared in Mind and Resources,” 

The mindset of a Samurai - To Serve.

I then turned my SOHO into a Command Control Center (CCC)

I was arranging the objects around me.  Not knowing what they meant.  Some like the metal object on the left were bought out of curiosity.

I now started playing the game.  The chess board is called Al-Araf 7:7  based on the chapter in the Al-Quran

It was a duel of supremacy between two opposing forces.  Here presented one of the joss sticks broke in a contest of equal.

The chess game stretched beyond boundaries.  Here it encompassed the two bokkens (wooden Katanas).

The Special Ops Black Epoxy Kukri played a vital role at this stage of the game.

Here is the basic setting of Al-Araf 7:7; which signifies the world map.

It also covers the alternate reality dimension.

The complete set of Al-Araf 7:7.  The external universe and the Universe Within.

His Majesty Service.

The final outcome of the game,  all humans to enter heaven.

Al-Araf 7:7 was a massive project.  It took me two years to finish the construction and to play the game.  I just finished playing the game mid-2016.  There was a time I scraped the whole project vowed not to look at it again.  But it was like a calling.  Hence, I reassembled the figurines and played until the end.  It was worth the effort.  I now know more about myself than ever before.  Through Al-Araf 7:7 I had discovered my destiny.


  1. You're so gifted.
    This will be the blog to follow.

  2. Thanks Karl, much appreciate your feedback :)

  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAXtO5dMqEI

    1. Hi there, you are the second person referring my experience to the Matrix. Thanks for the advice.

    2. Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.
      Neo: What truth?
      Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
      Neo: There is no spoon?
      Spoon boy: Then you see that is not the spoon that bends, it's only yourself.


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