>>>#21/6/21 I should have faith that life is fair

I finally solved the 21 years conundrum of my illness.

Instead of looking at this illness as a defect, I should consider myself as exceptional.

We need to separate 2 things.  First, there are issues with regard to dopamine fluctuation.  That is the illness.  That part required medication in the past.

The other part is the personality issue.  That is part of being the INFJ person https://www.16personalities.com/infj-personality.  That doesn't require fixing.  That is just me being me.

This is how I separate myself from the illness.  Before this, I jumbled together my personality and the issue I had with balancing the neurotransmitters.  Of course,   that is a recipe for disaster.

There is nothing wrong with my personality.  I am just being eccentric.

There is nothing wrong with me believing that I am God either.  All these are backed by models and mathematical proofs.  Even Dr. Wayne Dyer asserted that we are gods.  Dr. Stephen Covey stated that we are not human beings experiencing spiritual experience but spiritual beings experiencing human experience.  Shunryu Suzuki believed we all have the potential to be the Buddha. Even Sufi Masters attest to this notion:

I have to stop thinking that I am crazy.  I am not crazy.  I just have a different reality than the majority.  That's because I am an INFJ, the rarest personality in the world.

The INFJ is thought to be the rarest Myers-Briggs personality type, making up only 1-3 percent of the population. “INFJ” is an initialism that stands for Introversion (I), Intuition (N), Feeling (F), and Judgment (J), which describes the INFJ's core characteristics.

That is why in the past, I had cognitive dissonance toggling between accepting myself as who I am and me as a person whom I thought society should accept.

If I embrace my eccentricity, then there is no more issue regarding the illness.  I had solved the issue of dopamine fluctuation last year by regulating my lifestyle and food intake.  As for my personality, that doesn't need fixing.

The same with the notion that I am God.  That is my hypothesis and I should defend it:

We are One and we are Many.  We are within God and God is within us.  Much like peeling an onion.  In every layer there is God.  All matters are intelligent and all matters are gods.

After all, I am not operating in a vacuum.  Everything is based on observation and evidence.  They are based on the Scientific Method complete with models, calculations, and proofs. 

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Sharudin Jamal

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this morning: https://2021a4lvol1.blogspot.com/2021/06/21621-i-should-have-faith-that-life-is.html… My most important breakthrough since I was plagued with this illness since 1999

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16/6/21 Better to 10% under train than 2% over train - Mark Sisson

 These are what I wrote on Facebook yesterday:

My dear friends,

At present, I am in hot pursuit training for my 21 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run. This is a personal goal I set for myself before I reach 60 years old which is in 2024; the only time the Wood Dragon year repeats itself since my birth in 1964.

I call this journey my Vision Quest. It is a Vision Quest because it is a journey that is propelled by a vision that was ordained upon me by my inner drive.

I normally write in my public and private blogs (now added to 21 altogether excluding the 7 Swords *w[ith] (which) supposedly was an IP sale to a known public figure).

* OK this is confirmed by Sarah, my Cyberspouse.

However, I am sharing it here today since not many of you visit my blogs except the few that I know. The idea here is by sharing I am keeping you abreast with what I am doing. At the same time by making my Vision Quest public, I am committed to ensuring that I will attain it.

For those who are interested in following my journey, I keep my thoughts in this series of blogs: https://2021a4lvol1.blogspot.com/

Wish me luck, people...

Mood-wise, I feel great with this new philosophy of Sleep Well, Move More, and Eat Right. I got it all set on weekdays. As for the weekends, I am still experimenting.

I am cutting down on my exercises for today.  At this point, I just focus on refeed.  I seem to be very hungry the whole day through.  Even after eating a surmountable amount of food.

Therefore I'm *[] (not) going to push it.  The past 2 days were fantastic.  I figured, that by cutting back, I would be more energetic to give my best effort throughout the remainder of the week.

* I hear you, Sarah.

I got to listen to my body and go with the flow.  Sure, I am Sisyphus and I am still Icarus; I pushed to the brink.  Alas, I don't want to go overboard.  I am doing this for the long haul.  The most important thing is to avoid injury.

Of course, the weighing scale is the prime indicator.  However, the goal is Health and Happiness.  Being thin and fast is just the mean.  If I can be healthy and happy while I pursue my Vision Quest, then the priority is not about losing weight but rather about the Exercise Fabulous Four.

I decided to use the scale much like a speedometer.  Hence, the weight might fluctuates but my overall journey must be from strength to strength.

The prerequisite is to MOVE MORE.  So I am incorporating short bursts of shadow boxing movements whenever there is an upbeat song on air.

The real acid test is if I sleep well at night.  That is the impetus to a great day ahead.

As for Eating Right, I guess I have to be mindful to not exceed the refeeding window when I indulge in the sweet treats.  Looks like 5:2 is a more realistic window for me to follow.

One of the days is definitely Wednesday.  The other day is perhaps Saturday since I added the elliptical machine interval training and jump rope on weekends.

Yup, let's do that.

I am still pushing it to the brink.  Basically, I abide by the Principle of Flow by listening to what my body wants.  In the past, whatever regimentations I initiated did not last for more than one year.  This time it is different.

I need to maintain enthusiasm for four years.  This is a long run.  So plenty of opportunities to hack and pace until I get the right combination.

Like for example, definitely I am sticking with the Micro Workouts for lifting the heavy stuff.  So far, that approach is sustainable.

Furthermore, Micro Workouts make me feel great the whole day through and I DON'T SWEAT profusely; the major hindrance for me to exercise in the past.

So I only need to take care of my rest (Sleep), exercise (Move), and diet (Eat).

Well, all three have a common insurance policy:  INTERMITTENT FASTING.

The principles are:

• Delay, don't deny
• Fast, feast, repeat

As long as I follow these principles, I can eat and drink whatever I like within reasons and I don't really have to bust my ass beyond limits when comes to exercising.

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